First day of my last quarter at UCLA. It feels like I worked so hard to get here, and now it’s all quickly coming to an end. Ten weeks. Ten weeks, that’s all I have. We all know that in the midst of midterms, papers, and finals, ten weeks go by in the blink of an eye. This quarter I am determined to have it all. If it’s going to be the last, it has to be the best. Right now, there’s nothing I want more than to graduate with honors. I am determined to work my ass off this quarter for a 4.0. But at the same time, I want to play just as hard. This is going to be the last time I can enjoy Margarita Mondays, Pint Night Tuesdays, and shit-show Thursdays. I guess life is all about balance, and all I really want is to simply make the most out of my experience. When I walk away, I want to walk away with no regrets.
In 10 weeks, it’s goodbye California, hello D.C. My new adventure awaits.
In a number of ways, this past year has put my inner strength to the test. After experiencing my highest highs and lowest lows, I’ve come to realize the importance of acceptance. I had a sense of self-entitlement as if the world was mine to conquer and shape in my own vision of perfection; when in reality, the world is here to shape me into the person I am meant to become. I have learned to accept the things I cannot change, and simply appreciate the present for what it is.
This year has also taught me that life is merely a series of experiences meant to teach us all valuable lessons. I am young. I am here to make mistakes, to fall, to hurt, to cry, to learn. I am here to understand that I am not perfect and neither are the people around me. This played an important role in teaching me the value of humility, forgiveness, and understanding. But I’m still learning.
"A woman’s loyalty is tested when her man has nothing. A man’s loyalty is tested when he has everything."
Boss - Tinashe (Ryan Hemsworth Remix)
This time I’d like to keep in touch
I’m a little bit wiser, a whole lot tougher
If I suffer through another nightmare tonight
We’ll chalk it up as another chapter to write, all right?
Or wrong or somewhere down the middle of the road
I wanna see you again in a scene with the backdrop a perfect ten
And the music can take us back to the spot right then.
This has got to be the sweetest thing to wake up to. Thank you, love! And you should say hello some time. I’d love to meet you.
It’s weird how sometimes you just wake up and feel differently.